phew...
 bread thing went off ok, was scared witless  of course, but they were a friendly crowd and nobody pelted me with eggs, tomatoes or bread samples.  Next time I think I'd try and work out what I was going to say before I get there, winging it was ok, but I think it could be improved on. 
 It's always amazing to me the variety of people you meet at that kind of thing, I guess this is what people with real lives and jobs call networking! I call it meeting people, but that's 'cause I'm too shy to network, I mean, who knows where that kind of thing could lead?  There was nice jewellery, bread, coffee and interesting people, what more could I ask from my morning? well, I guess I could think of a few things, but not much! 

 I was so tired this morning that I slept in, missed bodypump (aww man, I hate missing the gym) and nearly lost my space in the class, I got a nice girl on the phone though who fixed it, nice girl, will take her cookies next week, a permanent space in class is like hens teeth.

 Then, after crawling out of bed feeling fat and lazy, what then? we went to the playpark, came home, I made granola and the supper and that was pretty much it, way to live it up eh?

 Tomorrow, well, it's another day.  I think I'm going to skip Lighterlife this week, I feel really fat, really, just icky.  Going to stick in at the gym, take my happy pills and pray for a miracle for next week instead.  Oh, and stop beating myself up so much too! after all, 11.13 stone is an awfull lot less that I used to weigh, even if it's a little more than I want to weigh now.  I found this post on saying enough!  through an email list, I love it, I mean, ok, it's a wee bit corny I guess, but the message is good.

 Enough beating up on myself
 Enough of feeling bad 'cause I'm different, we all are!
 Enough of punishing myself for mistakes made in the past
 Enough of looking at my body and feeling disgusted
 Enough of fearing my future
 Enough being lonely
 Enough with secrets
 Enough of not celebrating my freakishness! lol

 I'm nearly 31, I'm going to start celebrating! eh, not sure yet exactly what I'm going to do for my birthday, but I want to not let it just slip past.  Actually, on thinking about it perhaps I will let it slip past, save whatever I might have spent for my trip to the GoGo festival! eep, I'm stewarding and am stupid excited.  I have my tent (need to practise putting it up, do not want to make an idiot of myself) and am slowly figuring out what else I need to take.  I need to sort out a liftshare as the price of petrol is seriously worrying me right now, and it might be sort of fun to pick up some total strangers and share car time with them? maybe? 'cause of me being such a social butterfly and all.